Sunday 17 February 2013

Impossible.

It's two letters too long :)

Anne challenged us here at Lucky Snapping to think about the impossible and what that means to us. She also shared her story which was quite moving, there is a lot of inspiration over there this week.


My impossible that has been lurking in my mind this week was when I moved back to Devon to live with my parents nearly 8 years ago.


I won't share the details here but the outline is that I needed to leave a tricky situation with my ex. He was quite controlling and so without his knowledge I asked my parents for help, hired a big ole ford transit panel van, packed my belongings up as well as I could beforehand and then in a short period of time whilst I knew he would be out my Dad appeared and we packed the transit, the boys and my raggedy life. My heart was hammering at the enormity of what I was doing; the implications that I couldn't know about in the future, leaving my adopted town, my friends, my job. You get the idea.


Popping that key through the letterbox was one of the most challenging things I have had to do.


As I tried to wield that Transit van out of the city, following my dear, dear Dad driving my dear, dear (very) little boys as the tears streamed was frightening. The closer I got to home though, the better and freer I felt, Mum's face as I got here, my brother's, my niece's. To know that they were so nearby, I felt such relief. By the time the cot was made, the beds made up, all of us in our pyjamas, the phone turned off, I knew I had done the right thing.
As I journaled last night, when I look back now at the impossible task, I wonder what would have happened if I had said it was impossible. 


Life, ain't it odd?

  I painted with gesso, sprayed with cosmic shimmer mists, used washi tape that was one of the ones my lovely friend Sue (isn't her View challenge coming along beautifully?) gave me for my birthday and some stamps, I didn't know what to put in the space, but I think now it will be a print out of this blog post and go into project life. It is a milestone to talk about it and all the other thoughts I have had about it this week so I can record that it happened this week.
I must show you my project life as I have changed it's format and I am quite liking it :) I have also made a layout of January's Month In Numbers and haven't shown you that, I have also finished a layout for the house challenge on UKS that used some ideas from Kirsty's Telling Tales class and I want to show you that. In a minute there will be more than one blog post per week *blink*.
"Maybe" see you later in the week.



19 comments:

  1. oh Jen... lovely brave Jen, I am so glad you did do it and you are an inspiration. Well done on doing it, on this blog post, on everything, but mostly on being you.

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  2. I love it Jen, the project and the story and put into context, what you did is just fabulous. It takes a lot of courage to change a situation when not knowing if it's the right thing to do. So glad it was for you. xxxxx

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  3. You made a very wise and brave decision for you and your little family and one that turned out for the best. You've told your story beautifully and of course, had me in tears.

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  4. Aww Jen *sniff*. So strong and brave for your boys. Thank you for sharing - it must have been tough to put it in words. I hate that I didn't know you when you were in Portsmouth - so close for a hug.
    Sue x

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  5. Beautiful Lo & brave decision. Well done for making such a massive decision. Good idea to use this for project life. xx

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  6. That must have been so hard. I know someone else who had to do something similar and she too is much happier now. Thanks for sharing your impossible made possible and your page is fabulous.

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  7. Awww Jen! You are one beautiful brave lady. Love you for being you x

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  8. I am learning in most things that the anticipation is the hardest part, not knowing the outcome..so glad it was do-able for you and you knew so quickly that it was the right choice. Boldness should be rewarded and proclaimed from the rooftops xxx

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  9. ..and that's one moving, moving story. It's always a privilege when someone shares an important part of their life in a post like this, and always a pleasure to be allowed a glimpse of it. (And the beautiful accompanying art)

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  10. well done on doing the possible, so pleased it was made possible for you with the help of your family. Thank you for sharing and its a beautiful piece of artwork you have created.

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  11. your impossible certainly became possible,Jen. Well done
    I love your pages.

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  12. My goodness me you were brave but it was obviously the right thing to do. I'm glad you made it possible :)

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  13. So very inspirational :). Both the art and what led to it - I love your 'two letters too long' statement! and your lovely pages ... Hoping you continue to enjoy the freedom of confounding your own expectations :).

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  14. Well done Jen. Your post made me sob for you and your wee boys. That took real courage to do and you are such a good Mother to be strong for them both. Keep looking forward and staying positive. I love the page you have done too and a great idea to add in your blog post xx

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  15. I know this story and it has still made me sob. You are such a brave lady and I hate the thought of you being so frightened :( "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger" is so true of you - you are inspirational and I am privileged to have you as a friend xxxx

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  16. Jen thank you for sharing this with us, so glad the possible happened and 8 years on you have made a new life for yourself and the boys.xxxx
    Gosh how artistic you are! wish I was as creative as you...look at my attempt on my blog today, though it isn't finished yet!

    I haven't forgotten it is my new quotation next Mon and will email you later in the week with my blurb!!

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  17. Beautiful layout, Jen - congratulations!
    I like the flowers and the view out the window, too!
    Successful week!
    Yes - You are one beautiful brave lady!
    Good luck!

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  18. Wow, what an incredible story. I'm glad you did the impossible back then and got that strength from somewhere. Pretty effects on your art journal too!

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  19. Such bravery. Sometimes you know that you just have to find the strength to do what feels the impossible - I love your quote. So inspiring.
    I am so glad everything has worked out for you... I get the impression you love your life in Devon. Your page is beautiful and I love the flower border. Look forward to the other things you have been creating.. you have been busy! xxx

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Aren't you lovely, you have made me smile =)